About two months ago, I was seriously reconsidering our idea of having two children. Of course I realized it was a little late for that that. But the adjustment to two kids has been really hard for me. I felt like I couldn't get anything done, I wasn't happy, I didn't want to play with either of my kids, the house was overwhelming, and cooking dinners and other meals just wasn't happening. Benjamin has always been pretty easy (hence having another child so close in age!). But two is a lot more than one...and it has been an adjustment.
But finally, last night, I had that moment I had been hoping for. Nothing extraordinary happened, I just realized, I can do this...mothering of two thing. I can make dinner, I can clean the house, I can take showers, I can be happy, I can play with my kids, I can do the laundry, I can find time to read my scriptures, I can sit and talk with my husband, and I can do this. And it was just a glorious moment!
I love being a mom, but it is hard sometimes. I love being a wife, but my husband drives me crazy sometimes. I love being a homemaker, but my house isn't always clean. I am thankful I don't have to be perfect everyday. And I am thankful I am living this life instead of another one. And now that I am a mother of two...and I've had them longer than a few weeks..I can't imagine my life without either of them and I feel so blessed to be their mom!
Carolyn there have been so many times I felt this way! It is tough being a mom sometimes. As both of my kids have been screaming at me all day, I needed to read this. :) So thank you! Hope you continue to have those great days. :)
ReplyDelete